Planet Wedding

I never thought I would be so nervous before my wedding... It was my job to plan events like this last year. I liked it and was good at it. Even earlier this year as I was designing invitations, registering at Target, or deciding on a guest book, I didn't think that much about being nervous. I thought maybe, maybe, on the day of, right before the ceremony I would be nervous. But days before?

And here is the thing: I am not nervous about marrying John. I have never been so sure of something in my life. I am ready to run, no sprint, down that aisle to exchange vows with such a wonderful man.

I am nervous about three things that I can identify: 1) being the center of attention, 2) asking too much of people who have been willing to help, and 3) missing some of the tiny little details that go into planning a wedding day.

All day, every day lately I have been thinking wedding. This detail, that email, this phone call, this check... The list goes on and TAKES UP THE WHOLE DAMN DAY. I feel like I no longer have contact with the outside world, unless of course, it is part of the wedding industry. I am on the planet wedding and it is driving me nuts. I thought that this was a planet that only Bridezilla visited. Clearly not some down-to-earth gal that is trying to keep it all in perspective, right? Wrong. (I have been abducted).

So I realized today that one of the only things that can keep me within the bounds of reality are my great friends that are around. Today, when I was getting a little too distracted, K sat me down and went through the weekend with me, minute by minute, to reassure me that I hadn't forgotten anything. I felt more relaxed than I had all day. Then tonight, some of the gals came over and helped me put together the programs, and for a few blissful hours, I was clearly back on planet earth. I was still thinking and talking wedding, but it was different. There was laughing and talking about things that had nothing to do with the "W" word. It was great to just have company. I was so relieved to know I wasn't in it alone, that it will be over soon, and most of all that there are other people around to help.

Thanks be to good friends and for a swift return to earth!